all over the place. just like life. pretty much.

happy happy…

everything. including rollover into the new year. mine is lookin’ way good so far.

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and busy. so far…

010208 2:00 pm – intake, history and all that, for the spinal doc dude. but no actual doctor contact. i’ll give them the report on last year’s lumbar mri. but more in a bit on that.

010308 2:00pm – echocardiogram & nuclear med stress test.

010808 2:00pm – actual doctor contact with the spinal dude. we can also discuss the report of year old imaging. but. we may reschedule. because next…

010808 5:45pm – mri imaging, brain and lumbar spine. and they send a taxi to pick me up. then give me valium. not claustrophobic, i just get a bit restless in the tube. sometimes.

011508 12:30pm – nerve conduction study and electromyogram. i don’t remember whether this is for arms or legs.

011708 12:30pm – whichever, this is the other.

020608 11:30am – 24 hour eeg. or should that be eek!? 24 hours walking around (or whatever) with tiny wires attached to tiny electroded recording the tiny (or whatever) electrical signals coming out of by brain. be fun if we could convert ’em to audio and work ’em into something musical. i’ll ask (if i remember). they’ll prolly think i’m weird. that’d be different, eh?

021408 3:00pm – new rheumatologist. finally. pretty certainly a swift return to enbrel.

so, better and better all the time. never had so much health care, and everyone, so far, seems professional and competent. not to mention, my neurologist is a babe! like to see her in some cheap clothing! oops. sorry. distracted by the pain. where were we?


ya know how, sometimes, folks just don’t seem to listen to ya? i’ve explained to him many times, yes, it’s good to share with other cats, yes it’s fine to be mr. deferential and sit back quietly while others feast. only, not with birds at the cat food dish. (ya’d think just the name of it would be a bit of a discouragement for them. wouldn’ ya?). anyway, the birds have their own dish, plusalso surprises in the tree crotch and several daily toss feedings…

anyway it’s nearly next year so, um, not sure what difference that makes, really. hmm. but like i said, it’s gonna be good. good a’ready. stay cool, stay happy, stay away from zombies.


December 31, 2007 Posted by | artnlifenstuff, me, pancho, wildlife | 1 Comment

i woke up this morning

which is good, of course. and pretty much according to plan. wasn’t all thrilled about the sensations my body was experiencing at that time though. you know how nerves are, right? they don’t care about body reality, when they get confused, or annoyed, they make the body, experienced as pain, fit their definition. they can make a thumb 20, 30, 40 feet long.

or they can make a leg, hip to big toe tip, 18 inches long, and being pulled shorter. very effective wake up call, but hard to stand on. harder to walk on. but i’ve had practice, so… only needed about an hour to sorta normalize that. and only needed about 12 hours of awakeness to get to this point of thinking i could put together enuf words that appeared as if they might actually belong in the same sequences to make a readable informative post here about this day and these days and the days to come and their accompanying activities, but…

did i mention the zombies? maybe not here before, eh. ok. i live with zombies. somewhat sucks, but at least they come with walls, and a roof, and running water, etc. so, not so totally bad. still, zombies are zombies. they live by consuming the energy of humans. today the zombies have been drinking. causes them to consume energy at a way increased rate. ‘s’ok. i shall be released. eventually. ok, take a break. randomish.


um, ok, break time here too really. big day tomorrow, which is actually today. i mentioned back a bit about the new doc and the specialist referrals. gotta be at the neuro place in 12 hours. cardiologist is next week and the spine guy at beginning of january. so, um, …what. i dunno. sleep on it maybe.

the zombies have passed out. big relief that. but they’ll prolly be back at it early morning, so…


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December 21, 2007 Posted by | artnlifenstuff, me, nature thingies, pancho, wildlife | 5 Comments

screwed up day

but it’s done now


and the new day, of course, is bound to be better. bound to be. that’s why we have them. or, sumthin’ like that. fairly similar.

December 14, 2007 Posted by | artnlifenstuff, me, nature thingies, pancho, wildlife | 1 Comment

bob on a branch, briefly

been a bit breezy here lately.


bob on a quest. if you’ve been around me for awhile, i’m sure you’ll recognize the concept.


and 1 (one) more thought thingi.


something to sleep on, so to speak.

December 11, 2007 Posted by | artnlifenstuff, las vegas, me, nature thingies, wildlife | Leave a comment

eats like a bird

which begins to explain where the cat food was goin’ so fast.


bob is a great-tailed grackle dude. he has family, but seems to enjoy a little time w the boys, hangin’ w me n pancho. and food bits, of course.

leaves are variable. they’re losing green, and falling, but slowly. should speed up soon tho, nights are gettin’ cold. like, near freezing already.


just a thought. … saw a/seen by a new doc today. this one may be a keeper. may be. she’s promised the (finally!) referral to rheumatologist, so i can get some serious relief w the arthritis stuff. and one to neurologist. and cardiologist. and the one she was most way concerned with, which means i’m prolly gonna have to make the decision soon about back surgery or not. she seemed to think that walking is a very short term thing without it. but, she’s young. walking has been a rare experience so far this year, but i don’t expect to give it up any time soon.

whatever. i’m gonna sleep on it all. g’nitie.

December 11, 2007 Posted by | me, nature thingies, wildlife | Leave a comment

jus’ to say he was here

it’s a strange moment. a hard to explain strange moment. much to do. much desire to do much. as ever. but so little energy and so much drain. so little mental clarity and so much drain. as has become the current constant state.

but, how to say, expectation of accomplishment of something is running way high. based on nothing rational that i can see. just desperation, maybe.

anywayshow, (huh, forgot what i was gonna say, remembered, forgot…) oh, got project concepts in my head, and on bits n scraps of paper. some musical, which leads to this video bit which is spazzed beyond… beyondness…but that’s ok cos i really just wanna use the sound. usta know how to strip that out. prolly can figure it out again. prolly. sometime. somehow.

so, ok,, i was here, i dropped this little vid thing which hopefully will load n play for whoever might wander by. soon. nitie now.

December 10, 2007 Posted by | artnlifenstuff, las vegas, me, nature thingies, wild life | 2 Comments